this really needs to stop.

it's like im on this emotional rollercoaster and everything is just screwing up. like some phosphorylation cascade of negative stuff.

i tried i tried i really tried very hard.

but do you know the feeling when you try to return things to status quo and there is no form of reciprocation from the other party?

it sucks.

and i really give up. -.-
although i very much wanna do something...
i dont wanna let my emotional stability be affected because of something that i alone cannot save. its just not worth it.
not like you would care anyway.
cuz if i continue my one-sided efforts i think the #8 on my wishlist will never be achieved.

omg how i think i might be starting to enter the emo stage. >< then the #13 on my wishlist will not be achieved as well.

cannot.be.emo.
but it really can't be helped sometimes.